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Dear Kiera, For AA contact in your area, click HERE . When you make the call to AA, very often an AA member will call you back and arrange to take you to the meeting. That is good when it happens, because you will get to meet someone who has gone through some of what you are going through, you will have an ally who can introduce you to the program, you will perhaps make an instant friend, and you will begin to learn what it takes to get sober. For other support in your area, click HERE . If you still have the alcohol in your system, or you are suffering from physical problems as a result of the alcohol, a detoxification facility, usually at the local hospital, may be your best next step. The facility will stabilize, monitor, and care for your needs; and you will develope a followup plan which will put you into contact with support groups, rehabs, and medical professionals to assist your recovery. It is likely that an AA member with some sobriety may help you find and enter a facility in your area. For some hospitals in your area who may offer detox facilities, click HERE . What ever you do, Kiera, it's your choice. Just please do something now, while your misery is fresh in your mind. Okay? Thanks Carmen and Ange! Regards, Jim Post edited by: JR1, at: 06/28/2008 08:09 James A Rist
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Sunday was the first time i drank in 4 months. I blacked out and everyone said i acted a fool. Its not a surprise to me AT ALL. i know i have a problem but they're only getting worse. So to make my situation better on Tuesday i went to a friends and convinced her uncle (who adores me) to buy me some Absolute Vodka. Even if he said no then i would have found someone else to buy it for me. Lets just say he bought the biggest kind they had and i drank it to myself. Well most of it. My best friend and 3 other good friends were there. They didn't want me to drink but when they weren't paying any attention i was. I begin getting buzzed and thats when my other side kicked in. I embarrassed my self so much that day. They tried to take it from me Several times but i would run away. Later in the day they bought 3 MD 20/20s and i drank 2 to myself. Or so they told me. I passed out on the couch they said. Constantly throwing up. I have far from a weak stomach but i believe it was alcohol poisoning. My stomach is still turning flips. Still throwing up the little food i have eaten this week. The same day i drank i had hot flashes, anxiety attacks, mood swing,s and my Bi-polar kicked in too. I am taking anger management because when i drink i become a very emotional person. Usually turning into hidden anger. So when i returned home that day i cried for my mother. She and my sisters went to my in-laws house before i arrived. And when my mother returned home i was over the toilet throwing up blood
I flushed before she seen and told her i was ok and probably just caught the stomach flu.
We started arguing for nothing because i wasn't me. My anger kicked in again as well. I didn't want her to know how much pain i am in. And not from the drinking. But i cant lie any more. I need help and im not going to sit in denial anymore. My heart is full of so many lies because i don't want people to know my pain. BUT i am tired of it. I am just looking for a strong arm to help me up. So please if you feel you can hep its very much appreciated at this vulnerable time for me. Thanks 
I never ask for help because 
