Agoraphobia Support Group

OOH, i'm up past twelve and the day starts with an S! That means I get ANOTHER sparkle Saturday! whee! (ok, so i've had three vodka drinks, I tripped my own anxiety and i'm kinda spinning and hyper, so i'm in rare form ) Whee! Ok, so I am going to bed in a few minutes I think, I have my air conditioner on upstairs, so cool air for me! Well, and my cat, he sleeps upstairs with me.

SPARKLE QUESTIONS!

1) do you believe in the whole sparkle theory I preach around here?

2) when do you feel your sparkliest?

3) Do you see the beauty in a rainstorm?

4) Do you see the beauty in a panic attack......or a breakdown? (I know there's a TON of ugly that comes with it too, but humor me and think about this question for a few minutes? I think you'll come up with a great answer.

5) If you didn't know I'm 22, what age would you think I am?

SPARKLE PICTURE!

ANOTHER SPARKLE PICTURE! (ok, yes, I may be pretty close to a panic attack)

ONE LAST ONE! (then i'll go to bed, I promise)

Hello Irish Hello everyone else!! Hello Sparkle Saturday!!

SPARKLE QUESTIONS!

1) do you believe in the whole sparkle theory I preach around here?

I've yet to hear it!

2) when do you feel your sparkliest?

When I've got my bronzer on and glitter on my eyes.

3) Do you see the beauty in a rainstorm?

Rainstorm, yes. Full blown thunderstorm wreck, no.

4) Do you see the beauty in a panic attack......or a breakdown?

Panic attack is definitely a breakdown but the beauty is it doesn't last long (even though it feels like it does).

5) If you didn't know I'm 22, what age would you think I am?

Good question?

I'm off to bed for the night! I had a panic attack this past Thursday night while on a walk.... haven't gone out since. F Me. Maybe today (after I wake up... once I go to bed) will be the day. Wish me luck! Ta ta!

Hope everyones day is off to a glittery start

Good Morning!

I fell asleep around 2 a.m. and am up here at six. Hmmm anxiety I guess because it's the weekend and my sons always have friends over. Only one is here so far. But one is enough to make me anxious. So, I think I will just take a bath and start my day.

I bought a pretty plant. It looks like Lavender, but I don't know what it is. I just thought the purple flowers were pretty. So, I need to go plant that today. Otherwise, no plans for the day. WOOHOO! I could go garage saleing... but then, that would involve a lot of exposure and gas. Hmmmmmmm

1) do you believe in the whole sparkle theory I preach around here? I'm too old to sparkling Erin!

2) when do you feel your sparkliest? I don't sparkle, I'm lucky if I'm bright.. LOL I'm faded and old like that towel you use after a shower, but don't display. LOL

3) Do you see the beauty in a rainstorm? Nature's beauty? Yes

4) Do you see the beauty in a panic attack......or a breakdown? (I know there's a TON of ugly that comes with it too, but humor me and think about this question for a few minutes? I think you'll come up with a great answer. No, I do not. Let me think about it for a minute............. No, I still don't.

5) If you didn't know I'm 22, what age would you think I am? I know why you are asking this question. I think you are about that age. You seem mature, with a "spark" of childishness/immaturity in you. Never lose that.

Good morning! Just a quick thanks for everyone's responses to my video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDgNoLboJjg

For Silly, this is a much shorter one, hopefully it's easier to download. Basically I'm just thanking everyone for the positive feedback on my video.

Okay, I had to go out and get to Wawa first thing to get cigarettes for someone who bummed me a pack yesterday, I wanted to leave them in her door because I think she's leaving early this morning. So I have my coffee, let me get some tunes playin' and I'll settle in and answer the questions.

1) do you believe in the whole sparkle theory I preach around here? I think any theory or idea that promotes positivity is good!

2) when do you feel your sparkliest? I'm not sure how to answer that one... perhaps when I help someone in need.

3) Do you see the beauty in a rainstorm? Yup

4) Do you see the beauty in a panic attack......or a breakdown? (I know there's a TON of ugly that comes with it too, but humor me and think about this question for a few minutes? I think you'll come up with a great answer. No. Hell no. I would blow up a third world nation to avoid having a panic attack.

5) If you didn't know I'm 22, what age would you think I am? I would guess right around 22.

I just have to ask: How do you do the BOLD type? Everytime I try, it doesn't work...yes I am very computer-challenged with dumb things Do you have to hit the button before and after your done typing? Anyhow, I'm going to answer in all caps which I hate LOL

1) do you believe in the whole sparkle theory I preach around here?

YES! WORKS FOR ME!

2) when do you feel your sparkliest?

WHEN I'VE DONE SOMETHING I'M REALLY PROUD OF

3) Do you see the beauty in a rainstorm?

I AM WORKING VERY HARD ON THIS NOTION AT THE MOMENT. I AM LOOKIING FOR THE "WHY" BEHIND EVENTS IN MY LIFE AND THE LESSON THAT I KNOW IS IN THERE SOMEWHERE.. THE PROVERBIAL 'SILVER LINING'. I BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND I LOOK FOR THAT REASON WHEN THINGS GO WRONG. I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO MY DAUGHTER ABOUT THIS AS WELL ALOT RECENTLY. PART OF OUR "POSITIVITY TRAINING"

4) Do you see the beauty in a panic attack......or a breakdown? (I know there's a TON of ugly that comes with it too, but humor me and think about this question for a few minutes? I think you'll come up with a great answer.

SORRY BUT NO...I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANYTHING POSITIVE ABOUT A PANIC ATTACK. I 'UNDERSTAND' THEM AND WHY THEY HAPPEN AND ALL, BUT MY MISSION IS TO LEARN TO DEAL WITH THEM AND LESSEN THEIR CONTROL OVER MY LIFE. THEY NEED TO GOOOOOOO

5) If you didn't know I'm 22, what age would you think I am?

I WOULD SAY A BIT CLOSER TO 30 BUT MY PERCEPTION IS WACKY SOMETIMES AND I MYSELF ACT LIKE A 12 YEAR OLD, LOL BUT HEY, GOTTA HAVE A CHILDHOOD SOMETIME AND I'M MAKING UP FOR LOST TIME LOL

Well, the headache is back, again, and we get a trip to the vet this morning too Fidget!!! For our dog though. After that, absolutely have to get to the grocery store. Then all the 'have to's' are done for the day. At least I hope, never know with kids.

Not in a great mood, but not crying my eyes out either so I'll consider it a good morning

OK, just read the other replies and maybe I took the rainstorm out of context...I absolutely love storms, so yes, I do see alot of beauty in them, and most of nature (except spiders).....

I'm so glad I don't have full blown panic attacks usually. Damn... As long as I do what I want, what I can handle, and do them when I want, I'm pretty good.

Speaking of third world countries. Wouldn't it be fun to be the Angel of Death for a day? Just KNOW who all the assholes who want to blow shit up all the time, and kill people and eliminate them? LOL I do that in my dreams... it's fun!!!