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Girls- There is nothing more devestating than what you ladies have been through. I could not even fathom it. I wish that I could take all this pain away from you. The best thing to do is continue to talk about it. Get it out. Talk and scream and shout and vent, if you have to here. Amanda, I can hardly stand crowds of more than TWO people, I get completely overwhelmed. (a lot mentally when I was a kid) So going to a school function for the kids...I simply panic. Too many new people I don't know, and I feel out of place and start getting paranoid that people are staring at me... So you are not alone. Set small goals for yourself. Baby steps. You can't just say a new house will change you, you have to take itty bitty tiny steps to build confidence... All the girls here are awesome, just keep coming here...K? |
Agoraphobia Support Forums
Well, I have enough reasons to want to join the world again, but I have one very big reason why Im afraid to. I was kidnapped in broad daylight by a stranger with a gun. I realize the odds of this happening again are so small....its not really fear that keeps me trapped in here. Its just like I want to keep my world so simple, and Ive learned to exist only in this house. Its even so bad that if something comes up that I CANNOT hide out from (like my kids school function the other night)...I will become nervous weeks before I have to do it. It will be all I can think about, and then once its over I can relax. I just want to understand why I KNOW what i need to do , I KNOW the panic I feel is rediculous, and I KNOW that everyone isnt staring at me like i feel they are.....so why cant I just shake it off!! And why did this start 2 1/2 years AFTER the rape? Any ideas are welcome...i figure some of you have a better understanding than i do. I was only told of Agoraphobia a couple days ago by a counselor friend I met through the District Attorney who prosecuted my attacker.
