amandajo
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As Im sure everyone here knows, its very appropriate to label this entry "How I Feel for the Moment" because its just very likely to change within the hour,  Sometimes, I wonder how my husband can so easily adjust, but mostly I just thank God that he can and is willing to. Today, Im feeling grateful. Yesterday, my family and I spent almost the whole day at the house we have just bought. We wont be moving in for a couple weeks, but we are getting everything prepared. I set up my patio furniture on the new patio, and it looked so pretty. My son was putting together some Lego pieces, my daughter was doing a balancing act on a sawhorse, and my hubby was rambling about all of the ideas he is having about the remodeling. And any time Im outside (its not as often as I would like) and the sun shines down on my kids' blond hair...I feel almost stupid for only being able to focus on only the bad things Ive experienced. I mean, don't get me wrong...the man that kidnapped me kept me in the woods for 2 hours and it was an unspeakably bad experience. But it was also 5 years ago, and I wonder how many times Ive missed seeing my kids' pretty blond hair shine in the sun? How many more times am I willing to miss? I am not fooling myself, there are most likely more sunless days ahead....but yesterday, I got to escape my saddness and I was awake at 7am this morning with a peaceful wakening. There were no nightmares, there were no regrets of another day gone by without progress, I did good yesterday. And I hope if only ONE person draws a little inspiration from this entry, someone does...because when I have a good feeling, it feels even better if someone else feels it too. When I used to be a nurse, there were no meds I could push or doctor's orders I could carry out that made me feel like I had done my job as well as when I made a patient smile. I miss that. Anyway, today..at this moment...I am grateful. Grateful for my family, grateful for a good day had, and grateful that have a place to share it with like this group. Who knows what will come with another day, right? Whatever tomorrow brings, its comforting to know that I can make an entry and call it "Okay, so today sucks!" if needed, and you all get it. I must bring this to a close, I have some goals for the day and I find that if I do any driving I will be seen less if I move around early in the morning (how ridiculous am i?) But i look forward to checking in next time. Pray for me, and I have already prayed for you all  |
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