Agoraphobia Support Group

I was so proud of my accomplishments today. My grandbaby was born tonight and my friend who knows what I go through, told me how I should've been there and there are things I could've done to be there.

I fear judgement over this all the time and I'm trying to justify myself by saying I could've chickened out and not gone at all.

My happiness turned to crap and guilt =(

Nanna, I'm so sorry your friend said that to you. It's so hard for people to understand what it feels like to deal with this. Don't let someone else's words take away the happiness of what you accomplished today and the thrill of having a new grandchild born. You will have many many years enjoying that child and you did exactly what you felt you could handle today.

You should still be very proud of yourself !!!

What were you supposed to be doing?

My mom wasn't there for any of my births and I guess she would have if I asked or needed ?

well, there were too many people there to begin with. No one can even see her or the baby yet. It's almost 10 pm here and that's what I thought, what could I do other than sit ina room. My son was nervous and I did go up there for him and braved everything I could to get up there. I hate this. I dont even know if I wasn't anxious I wouldve stayed there all day unable to see anyone but hospital waiting room.

Dear Nanna,you have a medical illness called agoraphobia which is not your choice.This illness is extremely unpleasant and disabling.As disabling as pneumonia or broken legs.Yes,with will power and effort you can increase the possibility of getting somewhere in exactly the same way as trying to get somewhere with 2 broken legs or pneumonia,but it EXTREMELY EXTREMELY difficult.The fact that your illness is in your mind/brain/emotions does not make it any easier.Ask an epileptic or an autistic person.The fact that many cannot understand this is not your problem.Never feel bad or guilty about your illness/disability.You have a right to your restrictions.

You have nothing to feel guilty for. I am sorry your friend does not understand this illness.

NANNABIRD- First MEGA HUGS from me!!! I loved your poem you wrote me. lol see I am back!!! Second- I am so sorry for the guilt. Don't let it take over you. You are doing the best that you can. Baby steps and positivity. Not everyone is going to get it and understand it. But know that you are doing the best that you can. Don't put negative thoughts because that won't do you any good. Just keep doing the best that you can!!!

YAY Jpooh!!! Welcome back!!!! I went again this morning and did fine =) I always function better in the mornings! So glad to see you are back! hooray!! =D

Took this earlier today =)[/img]

Precious!