After 7 hours of deliberation, tears(not me) and lots of arguing back and forth found the defendant NOT guilty of the charge of Murder 2. Not Guilty of Battery in the 2nd degree and guilty of battery in the 3rd degree. I kid you not this was the single most stressful thing I have EVER done in my life and hopefully will not be put in this position again. I got named "The Talker"... cause well I actually read the jury instructions and knew what we were supposed to be deciding on and using what evidence. Had some issues with some people getting emotionally involved... but we nipped that in the bud. At one point we felt we were hopelessly hung and were instructed to go back and keep trying. So in my calmest voice ever I went over all the facts one more time and drew out a timeline, which changed the mind of one that was holding out. The other after hearing what I said changed his mind and they all decided I needed to go into law. I think not. Thank you very much. It is TOO STRESSFUL. And I am not fond of having someone's entire future and life in my hands. Anyway, got slightly pissed at being told to hush all the time, but ffs someone had to keep it going. And they were going over evidence that wasn't important! ARGH. That part was frustrating. We read the verdict around midnight after getting the case handed to us at 4pm, then figured out a sentence within a few minutes, by then we were tired and decided the guy needed to be punished for SOMETHING. FFS they were ALL guilty of being idiots. I am pretty sure I downed about 6 xanax today and nearly passed out a few times. I have never been so stressed that it caused that many attacks right in a row. But its done and I learned stuff. Like... not everyone should be on juries. Especially people who get emotionally involved and couldn't be impartial. I also learned I could talk for 7 hours straight and still make sense. Though they all believed I talk too much. I had a valid opinion DAMN IT. AND I was the only one that took decent notes! I tell ya though, in a deliberation setting, you really see a person's true personality. And I really had a panic attack reading the verdict. We were scared shitless of how all the families would react. It went ok. But we did have to be escorted out first before they could leave. I think I might sleep for 3 days after I finally calm down tonight though. Chandra~ 14 Panic~Nil ❥ ♥ ♫ ♪ ♫“Only one thing registers on the subconscious mind: repetitive application. Practice. What you
practice is what you manifest.” — Grace Speare❥ ♥ ♫ ♪ ♫
❥ ♥ ♫ ♪ ♫ “You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don’t try.” — Beverly Sills❥ ♥ ♫ ♪ ♫
There are three types of effort: easy, difficult, and impossible. The easy ones teach us
appreciation and laughter. The difficult ones teach us patience and perseverance. The
impossible ones teach us humility, surrender, and spirituality
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