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He is only 63, would be 64 in 4 days and was about to retire. He had been ill for a while.. as you can see in several of my other posts and my gut was right. At around 6pm tonight he had a massive heartattack and died almost instantly. My family is all here, and those that arent are flying in in the days to come.

I have never felt panic this bad before and somehow its not even scary.. an alternate reality is better than the real one right now. i used to say i never grieved but today...tonight... its just so much. He was truly the greatest man I have ever known.

So I won't be around for a while. I have to help my mom.. she is all alone now. And my family isn't taking it well at all... its like the worst nightmare anyone of us could have ever dreamed of.

Bunnie,

I am so sorry. I can't imagine how you are feeling right now. Please know that I am thinking about you and your family. Be good to yourself and take good care. As you know, we are here if you need us. Love and Peace, Krista

Lady please dont stay away, you need friends on here more than ever, let us all help you. I lost my dear father about 15 years ago. I think of him often ,he was the kindest man i have ever known. Please stay with us and let us help. God bless you. Alberta

So sorry Bunnie, you are in my thoughts

Chan, I my... I am speechless. The last post that I had read about your dad was that he had gone to the doc's and was going to be ok if he kept care of himself. My grandfather also rec'd a semi-clean bill of health a couple of days before he died of a heart attack. I am so sorry Chan, so sorry. Grieve, cry, get it out. It is ok to panic also. You will be feeling many emotions. We are all here for you. You are in my thoughts. Big hugs and take care of yourself. Much love, Jen

Bunnie,

I know,I don't know you well, but I wanted to say how sorry I am of your lose. I know we had spoke about sensing things and had mentioned you father. I'll be praying for you and your family. Try to do yourself a favor and allow yourself to feel. I know you want to be strong for your mom but you need to grieve also. Please take care and when you are feeling up to it please post and let us know how you are doing. Much love.

Danielle

I've always been the strong one in the family... and I just can't this time. I had a huge melt down at the hospital, in the car, at my mom's. In the hospital room where his body was... I just can't be strong and I don't want to be. I have to feel this. I have to let myself feel this. I knew it was coming.. for months I have known... he even told me he knew he was going to pass... so I am letting myself grieve, and for as long as it takes. I volunteered to write the obituary and eulogy... I know I can do that in the state I am in.. I am better at writing when I am really emotional.

I'm not worried about mom, I have 6 brothers and sisters and literally hundreds of family members. so many people are flying in.. its shocking. He was truly a good and honest hard working man. Not a soul on this earth could ever say anything bad about my daddy... he would give his shirt off his back for anyone and everyone loved him. the service will be massive.

These waves of panic are comforting. I don't know how to explain it either.. its like.. finally my brain is helping me. It snowed as we were leaving the hospital...

bunnie, im really sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your family {{{hug}}}

Bunnie, I'm very sorry about your father. I can't imagine how rough that is. It sounds like you are handling the anxiety very well, though, and I'm sure you're strong enough to get through this.

Dear Bunnie, I know what you are feeling and my heart goes out to you. Just let the emotions come. There is no reason to be strong, not now. Don't worry about your mom either. Everyone is in shock at the moment. You have to get through this week and grieve. The worry can be addressed later. For now just be and know there are many people who care about all of you.

I am so very sorry about your loss Bunnie, nobody can fill that void.