candymom419
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amersnay.......... I am soooooooo sorry to hear about what you and your husband are going through. I couldnt begin to imagine, It just heartbraking, please hang in there. It doesnt surprise me how no one really listen when you scream, "its the medicine". Its really weird, because im like,yes it is. I mean it all there in front of everyones face. Any dumbass(sorry) could see all these reactions are from the medicine but the dr.s and professionals totally deny it. almost like take up for it. Its strange. i believe when you say that adderrall made your husband snap. oh how much i believe it. People who have never taken the medicine cant possibly understand. Its hard to explain how your body feels. It different than how you appear to feel on the outside. I've heard soooooooo many times, that the medicine works different for people that have add, that it has an opposite effect. If you have add it comes you down, but if you dont it speeds you up. That's not true. I was diagnosed w/ add over 16 yrs. ago. This was way before you could just go to your family practioner and say, jimmy cant sit still". I have to take all kind of test , iq tests, i saw a neurologist and a psychologist, before i was diagnosed. So i know I really have it. Now saying that, when you take add meds. and ive taken quite a few and theyve all done this. It appears you calmer on the outside. It really does, but on the inside thats where your going crazy. its like you mind is speeding, and if someone intrupts this process you freak out. I definately have the potential to way loose my temper. You get fustrated and aggrivated. Your sitting still but your heart is beating so fast your hands are shaking. No body understands, you cant really expain it. All the dr.s say so what it not that. oh you have something. yeah, ALL of a sudden i have all these things wrong w/ me that have never been there before and if i stop taking the meds they immediatly go away, but its not the medicine. Im gonna try to explain something to you but its hard to put in words how i was feeling, this happened over a period of two wks. this is when i said goodbye to the adderrall. We were moving, and on the last night, my husband and I were relaxing in front of the tv when i felt my hand was getting swollen. I look down at it and INDEED it was. I told my husband look at my hand! Right after that, i felt my arm swell, my feet swell, my legs swell, my face swell, I freaked out! (now this was late at night, my medicine should be good and worn out by now)I run to the bathroom to see my face, i could actually feel the fluid in my body. I got so full of fluid it was actually coming out! Of my nose my gums my eyes, I swear. My husband saw this said were going to the er. on the way, my throat started closing up. It was scary. I had a sensation of slipping away the coming back really quick. I got to the er. the saw me immediatly and the place was packed. The said a had a SEVERE allergic reaction to something. Put me on all kind of ivs, did all kinda tests. I brought up to them that i take adderrall and i was wondering if it could be from that. OH absolutely not they said. if youve never had a prob. w/ it before then you prob. dont have a prob. w/ it now. (which is absolutely stupid cause in the next breath he said how it could be anything, "you know you can develope and allergic reaction to something at anytime", he said. aarggh! Anyway, he wrote me an rx for prednisone and we went home. next night, now im supposed to take 2 1/2 a day, but today i take 1. Later that evening,(this stuff started happening EVERY night. like when i was getting off of them)It was like my chest close up. i swelled up again couldnt breathe AT ALL. My husband called an ambulance. Ive never been that scared in my like i thought ok this is it this ambulance is not going to get here in time. I kept feeling myself slipping away then coming back really fast, i dont know how else to explain it. well when the ambulance got their they were so rude. they were just like oh you just having a panic attack. what! never have i have a panic attack. I went to the hospital again! My bloodpressure was like something i should be have a stroke from. They told me oh now thats from the prednisone you taking. i metioned my adderall again. still nothing no thats not it. We did this a few more time and about 2 more trips to the hosptial. i even wrote my children a letter in case i just dropped dead. Then i was like I know its the adderall, without a doubt. i stopped. all that other crap stopped. You just dont have coincedences like that. Even writing still cant give what was happening to me justice. NO one wanted to listen. Its so weird. I do know that canada did bann adderall. And i have a feeling that psychosis is much more common that they would like to admit. I use to here a radio kinda playing in the backround. but no radio. Im not nuts, im usually very healthy, Those times were the only times ive ever been in an ambulance of have gone to the emergency room. I really believe that this med. espeacially adderall and Ritalin, do alot more to people than they care to realize or admit. Call me paranoind, which you might. but theres another reason why there so quick to push these pills, besides our health. Like kickbacks or something. I read somewhere, now take this as a rumor, dont know if its true, but something like schools get money from whoever, for however many kids are on add medication. I remember watching a south park episode where all the kids were diagnosed w/ add. they would go to the pharmacy to fill there scripts. the pharamacist would be sitting behind the counter counting there big pile of money, kickbacks from the meds. It was a really funny episode! |
