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Colleenj Posts: 2104
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I didn't realize how out of control I am with spending until I tried to figure out for an hour on how to come up with $2500 so I could go see KISS on a special package deal. Yesterday I got two packages; one from Macy's with cosmetics from Clinique that I absolutely do not need (I have a cosmetics thing) and $350 worth of a new Nintendo3DS and accessories that I do not need, but hey, I was able to charge it all so what the heck, right? Everyday I tell myself that this is the day I will get my impulses under control and everyday it's something else. For today I doubled up on my Adderall again and I'm going to see if it affects my wanting to shop and spend money. This is something that became a problem for me last Christmas. I had aoubt 3 or 4 catalog accounts with about $400 credit limit on each one. At Christmas, they are always asking you to sign up for a credit card and I usually try buut get turned down. This last Christmas was a whole different game. One of my catalog accounts increased my limit by 500 and then another 500 about a month ago. That's how I got the Nintendo. I openned charge accounts with 4 different stores that had refused me in the past and two Visa cards. The other day I filled out an app on line for a Mastercard thinking they would say no but they didn't. I can make all the monthly bills and still have money left over but that isn't the point. I have to stop spending. Has anybody conquered this problem? Any suggestions? I feel like a failure as a group leader because I'm out of control.  Colleen
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
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I can't save money for anything in my life. I honestly don't understand how I can ever get this under control. I've gotten to the point where I've had my paycheck garnished because I charged up $13,000 and then just didn't pay it because, I just didn't want to be bothered by it. My phones cut off because I forget to pay my phone bill. And I'm an RN, I make decent money. Its so frustrating! I understand your frustrations. I don't think anyone on here expects the group leader to be perfect, just supportive! |
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Colleenj Posts: 2104
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Thank you so much for your support. I "suffer" from the need to be perfect and fall so short of the mark. $13000 is a lot to have charged and it would scare me too. I am on disability so I have to keep my spending in check as much as I can. That means If I have room on a card or account I will buy something but I'm careful about going over my limit. If I'm too close, I'll shop on an account that I have some leeway with. The point is to just shop and get "stuff". The late and great George Carlin did a great bit about people and our "stuff." It fits perfectly for those of us with a shopping habit.  Post edited by: Colleenj, at: 04/09/2012 04:39 AM Colleen
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
(*Quote snagged from jenny1978)
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mem5761
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Do you think you shop because of depression related issues or loneliness/boredom? I really don't know why I do it. What's ur therapist say? I'm the same way as you. If I have the money available, I'll spend it. But having my paycheck garnished 25% has definatly been a learning tool for me for sure. I think shopping can be an addiction for sure. |
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jenny1978 Posts: 2575
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Colleen, This is just my opinion, but maybe you need to talk to your psychiatrist because this sounds like a "hypomanic" state you are in. They need to give you a medication to keep you from being hypomanic or manic. I think that is the problem. Diagnosed Bipolar 2005(FOUND OUT IN 2012 THAT I WAS MISDIAGNOSED),Recovering Addict,ADHD,
Anxiety Disorder, EBV, fibromyalgia, sporadic hemiplegic migraines, chronic fatigue syndrome
I am not a doctor. I give advice about things, but you should never take my advice over that you would get from your doctor. My advice is just what I have learned from my life experiences and is just my opinion.
"Regardless of who you are or what you have been, you can be what you want to be." ~W. Clement Stone
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
"Believe in yourself and there will come a day when others have no choice but to believe with you." ~Cynthia Kersey
"Mary had a little lamb, she put it to the heater, but every time it turned around, it burned it's little peter." |
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Colleenj Posts: 2104
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I will do that. I just saw my pdoc last week and will see my tdoc next week. The pdoc says she wants to see me every 2 months but I will get an appointment sooner if necessary. I have always been confused about the difference between, manic, hyper-manic and hypo-manic. It seems like everything I'm dx'd with includes these symptoms in one way or another. I do think that boredom does have something to do with it. Post edited by: Colleenj, at: 04/09/2012 09:32 AM Colleen
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
(*Quote snagged from jenny1978)
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Please note that anything that I post is strictly my own experience or understanding of a particular subject. I am not a doctor and my posts reflect my thoughts or feelings of the subject, whatever that may be. Please always talk with your doctor. |
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jenny1978 Posts: 2575
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Hypomania is not as severe as mania. Diagnosed Bipolar 2005(FOUND OUT IN 2012 THAT I WAS MISDIAGNOSED),Recovering Addict,ADHD,
Anxiety Disorder, EBV, fibromyalgia, sporadic hemiplegic migraines, chronic fatigue syndrome
I am not a doctor. I give advice about things, but you should never take my advice over that you would get from your doctor. My advice is just what I have learned from my life experiences and is just my opinion.
"Regardless of who you are or what you have been, you can be what you want to be." ~W. Clement Stone
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
"Believe in yourself and there will come a day when others have no choice but to believe with you." ~Cynthia Kersey
"Mary had a little lamb, she put it to the heater, but every time it turned around, it burned it's little peter." |
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Colleenj Posts: 2104
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I think you're right. I feel better on higher doses of the Adderall. Not sure how a stimulant makes the mania better but it does. She mis-wrote the dosing instructions on the first prescription and I was taking 60mg. of ER in the morning. The next time I saw her I told her that it worked pretty good but felt that the next highest dose would be alot better. I have had gastric bypass surgery and there is an issue with absorbtion. Anyway, she rewrote the dosage as 30mg. twice a day. It isn't working at all.  Colleen
"In our daily lives, we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but the gratefulness that makes us happy." ~Albert Clarke
(*Quote snagged from jenny1978)
PTSD
Anxiety Attacks
Bipolar II
Depression
ADD/ADHD
Chronic pain
Alcoholic
Please note that anything that I post is strictly my own experience or understanding of a particular subject. I am not a doctor and my posts reflect my thoughts or feelings of the subject, whatever that may be. Please always talk with your doctor. |
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