Well I am 43 and today for the first time in my life I feel that it is not my fault I am the way I am! Of course I had never heard of Misophonia and thought to myself,"why cant I just ignore the sounds?" My earliest memory was around 12 years old when I finally blew up at my mother for chewing so loud at dinner. I remember that it had built up for a couple of years and that one night I couldnt take it anymore and blew up. Of course I was the problem and told that I need to get over it. I felt really guilty because I had hurt my moms feelings, but the anger was overwhelming at the time. Well now at 43, my fiance was watching the today show and said to me I needed to watch this segment about noises. She said it sounds just like me (from the preview). I am lucky that I have a very understanding fiance, but until today I think she had always thought I was a little over the top when it came to certain noises bothering me. So we both watched the Today Show and I feel so much better knowing its just not me. Not that I would wish this problem on anyone, I am just glad there is a reason for my problem. I have many times told my fiance I think I would be happier if I was deaf. Its a sad way to live life knowing that everyday can be a struggle to overcome certain noises. I know there are probably certain degrees to this syndrome, but my everyday struggles include people eating, slurping, heavy breathing, snoring chewing gum, etc. I sleep with a "white noise" machine to block out my fiance's breathing (which really is not that loud). I am waking my poor dog up all of the time because of her snoring lol. Of course there are many other noises that bother me as well. Well today I feel a little better that I know there are others like me out in the world. I am glad I can sit here and type this out without someone thinking its just me and I need to get over it. Thank you for listening. |
