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zoe37749

This diary is my attempt to be in touch with my emotions, help others, get and give support. I have bipola 1 disorder, am a rapid cycler and have had psychotic paranoia. I have Ocd tendencies. but i must say i am better sinc doc put me on Risperdal. I am taking responsibility for my disorder, which is new for me. This group is one way i can take care of myself.

Psychotic Paranoia

Jun 01 2010

Anyone who has experienced psychotic paranoia, where you unrealisticly and pervasively believe others are talking about you and/or are out to get you knows this is a terrifying place to be. i keep telling myself that its just out of touch with reality to think that way and its really helping.

Another thing i wanted to address is the stigma of the illness and how it made me feel ashamed. But bipolar is no one's fault and for so long i blamed myself, my parents, and God. It is ultimately my responsibility to manage this illness and i hope and pray that i will continue to do so.

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written by Dit, June 01, 2010

I've been there psychotic paronoia, thank God it only happened once and that was enough. I was only 18 and got hospitalized for 9 wks...i must say i've keep up taking my meds, seeing my pdoc now for 28 yrs and never have i gotten that ill again. Yes we are responsible to manage our illnesses and we need to reach out for that extra help every time its needed, so you can do it, i did.