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Yorkie Love's Diary

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Bad News

Oct 19 2009

My mortgages are two months past due, going on three actually, credit cards are declined, and no paycheck forthcoming. In addition, my business can't pay it's operating expenses and might be getting sued, twice. We have insurance for that, of course, but can we handle any further stress?

The list goes on.....it was my 10th wedding anniversary and I barely saw my husband all weekend and we certainly didn't do anything special or even mundane in observance of it. All that I ever wanted was a happy marriage. I'm on my third, fourth if you count the first one, and we are far from happy. My husband just doesn't love me anymore. He loved the hypomanic me, not the normal or even broken me.

My son got suspended from school, again.

Does anyone have anything positive to say? Is there hope that I will ever be happy? Sometimes, I just don't see it.

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written by Judith53, November 25, 2009

You are so due your happiness. You are one of the sweetest people I have ever known. You are so loving and kind and I have enjoyed talking to you so much. I went thru just about as much as you and I am 10 yrs. down the line from that. I felt the same despair that you are feeling now. Hold tight and pray. I have been praying for you for quite awhile and worry when I don't hear from you. The important thing is to love on yourself and what will happen with the business and your husband will happen. I tried to hold it together too long and didn't do myself any favors. Be a loving mother to your son but you have to take care of you. I got so run down and it really hindered my recovery from my situation. People love you and sadly your husband sounds just like mine was.

My heart goes out to you and I am looking down the road at your life and see you without this black cloud over your head. Please have a wonderful Thanksgiving. I hope you have some family to love on besides your husband. Relax. Do something special for yourself. I care very much!
(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))
Judith