What's in my heart . .

I am feeling really down tonite . .sometimes I think I'm over sensitive.  My birthday was yesterday and I have a twin brother that lives in the same city I do.   Anyway, he alwayplans something for himself for his birthday and refers to "our" birthday as his birthday.  I know we are two separate people but he is on the selfish side I beleive.  I've always thought that  he seems to only think about himself.  Growing up I felt a bond with him and I think he did to.  I use to always look after him and check with his teachers to see if he was behaving.  I would do anything for him - anything. 

 I just feel like he doesn't feel the same way about me as I do about him.  That is what hurts.  I would be nice if we could plan a birthday party together and have our friends come.  He plans something and then calls a few days before to say I'm invited.  I just think that there is something wrong with the picture sometime.  Like I said, I may just be too sensitive but I can't help how I feel.  There has been so many times I have been there for him through thick and thin and I just wish I could count on him in the same way.  Thank you for listening . .