What's in my heart . .

I had put a ad on rover.dom to be pet sitter when people are out of town, and I got my first call today.  I will be taking care of 2 chijuajua's and a fox terrier.  I amtrying to save up money for my daughter's school clothes in the fall.

I wish my twin brother would be more involved with my life.  He says he is but actions do not show it.  I miss my mom and grandmother every day.  I was especially close with my grandmother.

I know I have to be on my meds, but I nearly get angry everyday when I have to take so many pills.  It's not fair.  But, I've learned life isn't fair.

I always live in the fear that my depression will appear.  I don't know if I could go through such a rough time again.  I had not been diagosed properly so in 2006 what I thought was a severe case of clinical depression was really manic depression.  I had been real high the months previous but didn't know why.  I  just thought I was lucky.

This diary is so good for me.  Thank you MDJunction and my friends on this forum. I have never had friends or family that understood me or even cared.