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What The Hell.....

Feb 18 2010

I swear when I figure out a way to keep me normal someone always goes and messes up my progress...

So because of this place I learned a good nights sleep helps a lot and yesterday was one of the best days I had in awhile because of it. So today I'm cleaning and organizing because we just moved in this place a week ago. Well suddenly I come down with this tremendous headache... so bad to the point where I passed out and my 2 year old daughter is awake and running around alone. All day I couldn't see, couldn't walk, it even hurt when I cried.

Well they come in and begin bitching about how dirty the house looks and how there is nothing wrong with me but wanting to be lazy and smoke weed all day. I mean damn give me some credit... yeah I smoke weed, but I can't get insurance right now and nothing seems to help but that. Not to mention the only time I smoke is when I'm feeling sad or mad and I DIDN'T feel that way today so I haven't even smoked today.... AT ALL!

I mean I know having a good support system is a good way to overcome this illness, but what happens when you don't have that? The only person I have is my husband, but he has to work pretty much all day because right now he's the only one supporting us. Its starting to get to me because they're making me feel more like shit then I should.

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written by Dit, February 19, 2010

I'm sorry you weren't feeling good...today is another day. Hopefully you will be able to get on medication soon some drs have samples they can give to you. If smoking pot helps you, you gotta do what you gotta do to cope, i wish you wellness. Glad you're posting we are all here for you and care, keep in touch.