Welcome to my head (please watch your step)

After last Fridays appointment (8/31)....I am sorry to say that it didn't go the way I had hoped...AT ALL. First I go there and though I was told it was a all female place that there was a guy in it. Then that part of my therapy would include drug and alcohol therapy...I have A LOT of issues THAT is not one. I men

I am so sad right now.....I wounder if Tommy and I are a good idea at all. I don'treally think we are healthy for each other. I don't want our relationship to end, not because I will lose everything I have, have to be 

Well, I have been absent for sometime. The packing and moving took so much energy. I felt like at every turn, a memory was waiting to ambush me. The drive from far north in North Dakota, to far southin Houston was long and taxing. Arriving in this once familiar place was lovely and yet terrifying. As the family and I settled in, things inside me began to bubble and pop to the sur

Last night I was literally in tears over things racing through my head. I had gotten defensive earlier over nothing and lashed out. i then proceeded to question my thoughts and feelings. Am I being over reactive, over emotional, expecting too much. What had happened you might ask well; I  was trying to work on some of my HTML class ( something I find I very much enjoy and have a

Well....it was a busy long weekend. Kids went back to school today and I can start to get back into my routine. Things have been so busy, we touched on some emotional topics and I have been more ableto be open about ow I feel what I feel even admitting to my insecurities and nonsense fears.

I have so many stupid fears and stresses running through my head and I can feel myself letting

Busy morning, we have a showing today at 2:15. I hate running around cleaning and knowing some perfect stranger is going to meander through my house. It makes me feel open and exposed. I think a millionweird thoughts, will they look through my things, what if they take something, what will they touch, do they know me and are going through my private stuff and place. What if people I was around

Well last night I was having a hard go of things, the days disagreement with my old friend (said sarcastically, but you can hear that since this isn't a recording) who I now realize was justa toxic personality left me feeling emotionally raw and irritable.

My DH and I went out to do our bi weekly food shopping and well it seemed despite my efforts to refocus I was gett

Kids got home from school, normally a hectic time. My oldest who is almost 13 was very upset saying she can't wait to move....this I knew for many reasons but long term issues with certain kids havegotten more out of hand than usual. Right before april fools they had been (they being a few girls in her class) putting "love' notes from a secret admirer in her locker saying they would r

Well here is my first big diary entry...after my introduction not sure how much more I should let out there about me... Today has been good so far, I am in the process of trying to level out from allsorts of issues and developments in my life. I am currently trying to assist in the home I now live in while also searching a few times a week for a new home in another state (hard to do) I tend to