So now that I have left my job, I actually feel a sense of freedom.  I plan on getting some kind of part-time work until I found out if I am in fact moving to MA.  If I move out there I wantto do my art, but I also want to do something else.  I want to have a greenhouse and grow plants of a special variety.  I re-alized how much I enjoy growing things.  I used to garden and plant things, but never really had some focus.  Since that time I have made a lot of mistakes and gave up on a lot of projects bc they didn't turn out like I envisioned.  For some reason, my garden has come out quite nicely.I took a really ugly space, and made it into a place where I like to read at night by the fire of the torches I have out there.  I have one chair out there, so it is perfect for one person.  If I had more space, I would love to have a space for multiple people.

Lately, I have been noticing things.  Those things are the answers to my questions.  Deep questions about what I should do with my life, and things that come across to other people in a very specific way.  My art and my gardening seem to spark this reaction in others.  I absolutely love both, so why not do both?  My doc seems to think I could make a living with the horticulture more so than the art.  I think it just depends. 

Due to the reality that I have this issue that will impact me for the rest of my life, I must make accomodations for myself.  It sounds like a mixture of things, but living my dreams is the solution.