My ankle is killing me.  Since I have RSD I have been attempting to do things the most natural way possible.  However, after a year of being off opiate painkillers I am in so much pain thatI feel like I need more to address my pain than Cymbalta.  Everytime I stand up the pain is excrutiating.  When I wake up and get out of bed the pain is horrifying.  I can't walk. 

I posted something in the RSD category about this, bc I am feeling like a failure.  I feel like I should stay away from opiates bc I should just put up with the pain.  I can't do it though.  I am in pain.  I feel like I am having to decide what I need from my docs, and what I know works and isn't working.  The cymbalta worked great for a while, and I have even increased my intake lately per my doc.  There is a horrible pain in my nkle and heel now though.  My ankle is destroyed and I will only have problems with it for the rest of my life.  It is never going to get better than it's been.  Now that it's getting worse, I know that my hope was just something to make me happy while I had the hope. 

I am just scared to tell anyone in my family and my bf.  They all know I got off opiates, and are all so proud of me.  I think I will tell my bf, but not my family.  At least for now.  I just need something to help when the cymbalta isn't doing the job.  I don't know why I feel so bad about this.  Maybe it's bc I know what it was like to come off them, and it sucked ass.  However, the fact that I am contemplating that experience again tells me there is something wrong enough to justify taking them again. 

This is a serious decision for me, and I am just a little perplexed about it all.  I don't know.  I guess I will see what the doc says tomorrow.