Tomorrow is the day when I turn 32 years old.  I think it's exciting, and for some reason this birthday is different.  I am glad to have a birthday, and the number means very little tome.  I think I am at a point where the age is not that important.  The day itself and celebrating with people I love is really important. 

I am lucky this year, and maybe that has something to do with the way I feel.  This year I am able to see my dad, mom, and best friend.  It's breakfast with dad, lunch with best friend, and dinner with mom.  Oh, I also see my doc tomorrow for our weekly session. 

I am also feeling some other things, specifically about the people on this site.  These things are making is hard for me to want to participate, and I am not even going to attempt to make my own thread.  I am speaking my mind about this here, because I am not turning this into a thread that can be shut down if the "wrong" people speak their minds.

This all has to do with something that happened on a message board regarding marijuna and bipolar.  I was accused of taunting people who are addicted to drugs, and in a way encouraging their return to their addiction.  At least this was the impression I got from the message I was sent about it.  After I responded to this message, the sender realized they were wrong or something, because they turned their thoughts around completely.  The part of this was there was no arguing or inappropriate anything going on in this thread, but it was closed anyway. 

From all this what is the point in making DISCUSSION threads an option if intelligent debate or discussion is up to an untrained individual?  There was no reason to shut people up about this, and I feel it was closed because it made someone a little uncomfortable.  How am I supposed to benefit from anything on this site if it can't be just a little uncomfortable?

This pisses me off, because I really liked this site.  I was able to talk to people about anything, but now I feel like I am being watched and anything I say against the grain will be sensored.  That really sucks, because this site was pretty beneficial.  I have met a lot of really nice people, too. 

It is yet to be determined if I will ultimately stay on this site.  My activity has decreased significantly recently, so we'll just have to see how I feel about it.

Oh, and btw- the opinions thread is all great, except when you are competing with so many other threads.  If there was a way to separate things by section, that would make things a lot more easy to navigate.  Either this, or maybe instead of closing a thread, the abusive messages are removed, and everything else left as it should be.  The only thing that I have a hard time with is sensorship, and who(m) makes that decision?

I guess that's about all there is to say about that.  I could bitch all night about it, but I have better things to do.