|Mar 24 2011|
Oh my, how neglectful of you I have been! I truly apologize, but there is always SO much to do and so little time. Please know I do think of you, and I always wishI could make more time for you, but sometimes....oftentimes, it is just impossible to keep you in my life.
My dear diary, you know me well. You know about my inability to prioritize, my pesky problem with procrastination, my misunderstanding of how long it truly takes to do something, my bad habits...always waiting until the last minutes to do some things, many things that are very important. I used to joke and just say, "well I work well under pressure," but it really is not funny anymore. Living like this brings into my life the unwelcome guests of stress, anxiety, and the indescrible uncontrolled feelings of just always being completely overwhelmed.
But, guess what, dear diary? I am preparing to leave it all behind! Yes, I am celebrating tonight, my soul is soaring, because although I am far behind, and although I may end up staying up all night, tonight, in the morning, I am going to FLY AWAY FROM IT ALL!
Yes, dear diary I am going to board the plane in the morning and in the afternoon I will be landing in sunny Florida. My 82-year old mom will be there to welcome me. She will be there to bring me to her winter home. she will be there to bring me on many great adventures in just one, short week (because, dear diary, we both know how time flies, no pun intended, lol!). She will be there, because it is time to leave this all behind and go make some memories.
Dear diary, I will make one promise to you tonight. I will leave all my technology at home. No more "umbilical cords," plugging in and unplugging dragging computers and phones from this place to that place all over the house.
No sneaking online to check on "just one more thing," or to complete "just one more task." Nope. I am unplugging for an entire week. I will bring my books. I will bring my music. And I will bring myself, anxiety free and ready to soar. I will take a deep, cleansing breath, look at the beautiful ocean, soak up the sunshine, snorkel with the fishies, all part of creation. I will do all those things that that will take my breath away and not those things that cause me to feel like I cannot breathe.
I will eat good food, I will drink some tasty, thirst quenching drinks, and I will even allow myself some treats.
This gift to myself, this week that has been given to me to sit back, reflect not on all that I have to face when I come back to it all but on the blessings in my life that have presented so that I am able to make my escape from it all, if even for one week in time.
I will not whine and complain when it is time to return. I will bring a piece of the inner peace back with me. This week will be my gift, and I will come back revived and refreshed with a positive heart, a positive soul, and a positive mind. And I will hug my furbabies, my Olivia, and my Otis, and I will call my sons, and I will say that I love you and I adore you and I am so grateful for all of you, because there is no place like home.
But first, dear diary, I am going to fly away! :)
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