|Aug 31 2009|
this is an email i sent him:
So I have been talking with my Dad. He seems to think that staying friends until we get to where we are trying to go is a good idea. He also said that dating didn't have to cost anything(so maybe hopeful that he would understand staying together?).
I am still crying on an off. I think maybe it is a little better. Not by much, though. I miss your presence, and I believe that that is due to my dependency issues. That is an issue, that I need to conquer, though I can't say that I want to. So far I have been thinking that, we do need to live apart. We do need to do our own things to get to where we are going. And we do need to not to have to worry about the other one as much. But I also think that we may be able to handle a strictly dating or hanging out relationship. I am not sure if we could consider ourselves together, but at the very least, good friends. I am not sure how long that would last really.
Maybe we can stay friends for a couple of weeks, and hang out when we can. And then, if after a couple of weeks, we are doing better and able to manage separate lives, then we can think about dating. Those are my thoughts for now as I have them, I will write more later when I am able.
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