|Nov 15 2010|
Well it is almost my birthday. I will be 28 on friday 19th November. his past year has been another struggle of pain self loathing and wanting to change but not being able to. My hormone theropyis well under way and i have seen some positive changes but the agoraphobia is as bad if not worse than ever. I was attending some CBT but after a few weeks i hit a block and have been more house bound than ever. i a so confused. how is it that i can get on a train every 3 - 4 months and go to london as cool as a cucumber, but when it comes to leaving my flat to walk about in my own city that i panic, anxiety sets in and i become physically un able to go outside?? I just feel more like a freak than ever. All i want is to be normal, to be able to get up and go to work or into town, to be able to have friends and go hang out with them. to do normal things and come home and say what a good day i have had, insterad of sitting staring at the same 4 walls day in and day out.
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