Diary Entries for Iktomi

Update

Iktomi

Well it is almost my birthday. I will be 28 on friday 19th November. his past year has been another struggle of pain self loathing and wanting to change but not being able to. My hormone theropyis well under way and i have seen some positive changes but the agoraphobia is as bad if not worse than ever. I was attending some CBT but after a few weeks i hit a block and have been more house bound than ever. i a so confused. how is it that i can get on a train every 3 - [...]

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Iktomi

It's been a while since i last wrote. i have been sick with gastric flu and not been feeling up to much.

I havent really been out much except once. I went out a coupleof days ago to the train station, i have a hospital apointment in London in a couple of weeks time and i really have to go no matter how many anxiety and panic attacks i have on the day. i got the tickets, and although i felt physically sick while waiting for the bus there and was extreem [...]

A fairly good day

Iktomi

I guess yesterday was a good day even though i did absoluely nothing other than watching tv and playing on the computer. I did however find this site and managed to sign p to 3 new forums formy different conditions, i think they will all be of some use especially the agrophobia group, they all seem a great bunch of people.

I didnt leave the flat all day but i did manage to answer the phone, i had been expecting the call from my landlord to arrange a inspection of the gas ap [...]

Introduction

Iktomi

i was born on November 19th 1982 Emma Jane Gordon, weighing in at 8lb 12oz. a pretty ordinarry baby if a little large but then i was the smallest out of me and my 2 older brothers who weighedin at 9lb 14oz and 12lb. my early years were typical and nothing stood out about me until i was around 3 years old. i started refusing the fact that i was a girl and insisted i was a boy. I took a pair of scissors and cut off all my hair demanding to be called Fred. at this p [...]