|Jun 15 2010|
I have gone thru so much Crap to try to get some pain relife and No one wants to hear what I got to say and if they do they look at me as though I am lying. what the Crap why would I lie aboutbeing in pain and can't you tell you live with me and the ones that don't knows me well enough to know better than I would lie about something like that..Can't you tell just by watching me walk or do you not see my tears as they run down my face as I try to do things Like YOU want me to. Its Crazy that these people say they love me but at the same time they look at me thru hate filled eyes. like I just want to lay here and you take care of me...NO I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!! I WANT OUR LIFE BACK TOGETHER TOO!!!!! DANG IT!!! WHY I know so many other people are in worse shape than me but i feel as if I am getting worse not better....I love my family with all my heart but do they really love me? why do I feel so guilty because Im sick!!!!NO Dr. wants to give me anything for pain worried Ill be addicted.well im just gonna say this one more time if im gonna hurt this bad the rest of my life I would rather be Addicted to something that could take the pain away!!!! Any way Im going to go lay back down and get all the nasty looks Ive gotten the last few weeks now....I so need a break!!!!
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