fuck the title

who ever said being honest was the best policy , well I would love to shoot the fucking bastard right now.  Have a girl at work that is well untouchable, she does not like white men, first strike, she does not like fat men, well hell that is the second strike.  Would  like to do her once yeah, but that is a fansaty.  Would never happen out of my league.

Well the other day she tickled me while I was on the phone with my boss, boss bitching about paperwork not being done and the girl is making me laugh.  I get off the phone and I tell her she does that again will bite her ass, the phone rings again and it is Erin, she starts to tickle me again, I finish the call with Erin and I pull Maria over my knees and spank her three times.  Smart move no, was not thinking just did it.

When I get home I tell Erin what happened.  I explained there was sexual tension there and she gets really mad.  I explain to her lst night what I felt and that I did want to have sex oine time with maria but that would never happen and she goes and sleeps on the love seat.

Try to talk to her about it and I cannot answer a question for her so she walks away again.  Tried to tell her she is the only girl for me, would never have sex with maria, would like to but would never happern.  I was honest with my feelings and now am being tried and convicted because of it.  Fuck being honest if this is how it works want no part of it.  Guess I am in teh dog house and will remain there.  I guess not good to talk about desires and feelings any more will just close that part of me off and not deal with it.