Well, this letter is not really a freak out, but more of a statement of ,

Give Me a Freaking Break???

Steve decided a week ago that we were over. He told me that with all of his plans forwhat he wants to accomplish in the near future, that adding in a relationship would just mess things up. So we are done!!!!!

 O.K. I kind of knew that one was comming, then two days later my 17 almost 18 year old told me she wants to move in with her boyfriend and his parents this summer after school gets out. I have talked with her at length about this retarted thought, but alas I cannot really tell her no. She will be 18 and be able to make her own decisions. I just told her the options of her decision and that if she should fall flat on her face that I will be willing ot still be mom, but at a limited capacity. Then I now have college finals comming up this next week and my daughters Jr. Prom is this Saturday............... If that wasn't enough to cause me to order my own straight jacket, My good friend Rich, the man who lost his leg due to motorcycle accident 2 years ago, just told me today about 15 minutes ago, that he has another infection in his stump and when he went to the doctor  while I was in college classes, the doctor decided that they are now going to have to amputate above the  knee next week...... 

Can someone stop this ride and let me off. I have seen enough....

It breaks my heart to see Rich go through this for the 28th time. Yes he has had 27 surgeries in the past 2 years to his leg. The first 20 were to try and save the leg after it was completely crushed and mangled. The other surgeries were for restruction of the stump after the amputation and for getting rid of this freaking infection that won't go away!!!!!!!!

Now I have no idea what I am going to do!!!??????????????

It seems I've pissed off someone and I wish they would leave us alone. It would be nice for a change. But such is life and when ever you are down, life will come along and kick you in the face....

But an another note, I am very blessed to have such wonderful children, a home over my head, food for us to eat, and a computer to write all this stuff on and the keys haven't fallen off yet. So thank you God for all of the many blessings in my life and please forgive me for the ranting and raving of a very frustrated woman.....