Thoughts and Considerations

You guys know how I was telling you about passing out when I'd stand up?

Well, I finally fully passed out and fell to the floor the other day.

I put two and two together and figuredout it was my medications: Tramadol and Cyclobenzaprine. Soooo I switched to the other meds they gave me: Hydrocodone and Diazapam. ALL BETTER!

I am feeling super normal :)

On the down side.... Because I have been feeling a lot better, I have been more active and doing things I was told not to.. like bending and whatnot.

Well on Friday I went out to the bar to see my friends and I got up to hug one of them and Tyler said I was bleeding. I took Tyler outside to check my incision and no blood but there was a huge pink circle on my back at the low end of the incision. (Keep in mind I went as a Fallopian Tube Swim Team member so I was dressed in ALLLLLL white!) 

I figured someone spilled a drink on me so I went to the bathroom and washed my two white cotton shirts. Time passes by. Another of my friends shows up and I give him a hug and Tyler says, "Ashlee I really think you are bleeding" because there was a small pink circle there now. GREAT!

I washed that out and got some bandaids to put on my *what looks to be healed* scar. 

It eventually stopped leaking. I'd say bleeding but it wasn't really blood. 

Also, the very top of my incision is red and I think that is where they put the drain because it looks kinda like a needle eye. And my doc started freaking out about that saying I might have an infection and to come out there that day. Um Hello, I live three hours away. :) 

I asked if I could just email a picture or if there was an alternative. I took the alternative... wait to see if it gets worse. So far so good. 

I am starting to not feel the hardware. Its becoming part of me *insert monster rawr*

My deltoids are still pretty inflamed but its a lot better. I've noticed a tiny bit of kyphosis in my neck. 

I'm still not happy with my back but I don't think I ever will be seeing as how I have so many years of hating myself and my body dysmorphia doesn't help much, I'm sure. 

No breathing problems anymore, since I switched meds. 

Uhhh.... Physical activity has picked up A LOT! I am so happy for that. 

Can't bend like before so I do this squat thing or I just sit on the floor if need be. 

I'm also not out of

breath when I get dressed and I can do it all myself. 

I wore boots with a HEEL yesterday. Did just great!! 

Oh! and I lost ten pounds!

ITS AWESOME!!!