Diary Entries for JessLovesAsher

So far with Asher.

JessLovesAsher

Everything is going great! I love watching him look around in awe, its so cute. And he makes the funniest faces!

Rich comes home every Friday for about 5 hours, and then all day on Saturdays, and then we go to the Navy base all day on Sundays, so he gets to see Asher a pretty good amount. Not nearly as much as we would like, but in about 3 weeks he'll get overnight liberty, so he can spend the night on weekends, and come home for a few hours everyday.

Things are going really w [...]

My weekend with Richard!!

JessLovesAsher

Was amazing! He didn't get to spend the night, he had to go back to base every night at 8:00, but that is definitely better than not seeing him at all. Asher hasnt come yet, and I dont think I have had any contractions, but he really needs to get here soon. Lol. Rich's superiors said that he could take a week off when our son is born, and get to spend the night, so that should be good.

I would also like to let all of you know, I was very excited to have my Richard back. I [...]

I should be delivering this weekend!

JessLovesAsher

Doc says Im 2 cm dilated, and 80% efaced. Richiewill be here day after tomorrow, so hopefully this all comes together nicely. My son will be here soon!!!

This excitement is killing me!

JessLovesAsher

Rich comes back on Friday, and then I get to spend time with him! This week will be the slowest one of my life. lol.

Thinking about getting induced?

JessLovesAsher

Ill be 37 weeks on Monday, and Rich gets back in 10 days [YAY!] so i was thinking about getting induced on one of the weekends that hes here, that way he can be there for sure. But I heard there is a high risk for complications with that? Idk. Im scared. lol.

So I really wish.

JessLovesAsher

That Richard were here right now. I got a new dress, and he was always the one to tell me if I looked nice in them. I wish he were here to tell me im pretty, or to listen to me rant because Im havinga bad day.

Most of all, I wish he were here, so I wouldnt be the only one to enjoy the movement of Asher.

Only 15 more days.

The stress.

JessLovesAsher

I try not to stress too much about the Richard situation. If Asher comes before he gets back, then I get to see the look on Rich's face when he sees his little boy for the first time. If not, thenhe gets to be here to see him born.

However. I really want him to be here for the birth. I dont want to have to go through it without him, and although I have the full support from my family and his, he is the biggest part of my life. Its important to me that he's there. Its alway [...]

Third unltrasounds for a bad reason.

JessLovesAsher

My doctor measured me today, and said that I was measuring a little small. He told me not to panic, it could just be that Asher is scrunched up in a little ball right now. However, he wanted me to have another ultrasound to make sure there was nothing wrong with his development or growth.

Im scared now, really scared. I dont have my ultrasound until Monday, and Im worried that something is wrong with my little boy. I wish Rich was here, so that he could go with me, or tell me tha [...]

Baby shower!

JessLovesAsher

So the baby shower went really well. I pretty much got everything I needed, except now I have to find room for it all. Lol. Tons of clothes, tons of diapers, tons of wipes, and the cutest stroller andcar seat set I have ever seen. My parents also got me a pack n play. I love it. :D Asher will be here soon, no doubt about that. Oh! And, in 26 days, Richard will be here as well!

Stretch Marks. >:[

JessLovesAsher

My stretch marks arent even really that bad, Ionly have them on my hips nad some on the tops of my thighs...but the ones on my hips are getting dark as fuck! They're freakin purple!! I know they willfade in time but...man. My body used to be so pretty...now im a cow. Rich said he will always think im beautiful no matter what....but he hasnt really seen them yet. Lol. I know its all worth it in the end, but jeezuz. Give me a freakin break.

He wrote back everyone!!

JessLovesAsher

I just got a three page letter in the mail from my Richard. He told me that he misses me, and that I only have a month to go until I get to see him again!!!

Im sending him another one, this timewith ultrasound pictures of Asher and some of me [the rare good ones.]

Im happy now. <3

My excitement.

JessLovesAsher

Is growing. For everything. My favorite grandma is flying here in 3 days, and then the day after that Im going with my fiance's mom to find a dress for my baby shower. Then on Sunday it IS my babyshower, which im stoked for. AND, Friday is me and Rich's 11 month anniversary. Only a month and 5 days until I get to see him again. <3

THEN after he comes home, Asher will be here soon! And we will have our baby boy. :D

I wrote a letter.

JessLovesAsher

To Rich. Basically telling him what I'm doing to keep myself busy. The fact that I miss him more than anything, and that I will forever stay faithful. I let him know that his son is getting very big, and his heart rate is strong and healthy. Then, I put lipstick on and kissed the bottom of the letter. Mostly because I miss kissing him. lol.Lets hope he writes back soon. :]

Asher

JessLovesAsher

Is kicking so much today, i love it. I wish his daddy could be here to feel it, but I know hes thinking of us in bootcamp. :] Asher likes to kick the most when im laying on my right side, but its okay. I bought a swing for him yesterday, my first piece of baby furniture. It matches the jungle theme perfectly.

I love you Asher Matthew Kirkley. <3

31 weeks. :]

JessLovesAsher

I am getting soo big. I think the worst part is finding new stretch marks everyday. Yuckk. Luckily though, I have 3 friends that are also pregnant...that makes me feel a little bit better, althoughIm way further along then most of them. Rich said bootcamp isnt that hard, that the hardest part is missing Asher and I. I thought that was incredibly sweet. :]

Another thing, wtf is up with this constant craving of desserts and candy? Its like Asher wants to be spoiled rotten before he even g [...]

OH THANK GOD.

JessLovesAsher

Rich just called me. We got to talk for like half an hour, and it was sooo nice to hear his voice. I miss him soo much. I basically cried like an idiot the whole time, lol. It was just nice to hear thathe loves me. :]

Being 7 1/2 months pregnant.

JessLovesAsher

Is hell. My back hurts. My legs hurt. My hips hurt. I found stretch marks. Nobody is around to sit there while I cry because Rich is gone and my mother works. I mean, Im not one to feel sorry for myself, but this is really tough. Seriously. I love when he kicks though, even the hard ones. Just to let me know hes okay. :D

Lately.

JessLovesAsher

I have been feeling a bit more down about Rich being gone than I thought I would. I should be used to it by now, but im not. I hate that the other pregnant girls im friends with all have their hubbys, and I get to sit around and watch them enjoy each others company. I have friends, but they dont quite fill the space. This is hard.

Richard.

JessLovesAsher

Is in bootcamp until September 13th, and I miss him terribly. I wish he were here, I really do. Cant wait for his first letter. I love you Rich.

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