05/01/10

going 2 attempt this entry cause im tryin 2 do it regulary

we have friends from interstate stayin with us at the moment 2 kinda just help out n b here after my hospital stay, great 2 have themhere, went 2 dr 2day on my own no kids ( jesus christ ) n when i came home kitchen was tidy, microwave was cleaned out kids all happy n relaxed, was brilliant.......they offerering 2 do my housework look after kids etc n just tellin me 2 relax, i guess u really work out ur real friends hey? but then im of the opinion 2 that some ppl just dont cope with illness n stay away n i dont blame them 4 that. because i AM the illness person or have experienced bad health i would b the 1st 2 offer help 4 someone else if needed but some ppl cant n i respect that. I am learning so much FROM this illness ( not disease remember cause disease yukky :) ) like how 2 slow down n accept help, not judging ppl 4 whatever reason, my mind is more open, im more receptive n understanding n patient ( sometimes ) , im takin the time 2 really enjoy n appreciate the simple things in life, layin under the stars, watching lightning at night, appreciating the small quiet times i get, ive had a lot of reflection n am making myself a better person n just lookin at life so differently, regardless of this blasted illness i am still blessed.......i may not have my health but ive everything else that some ppl only ever get 2 dream about....

had bloods done again 2day 2 check levels 4 pancreatitis, results in 2 days but minimal pain n im feeling a little better so am not concerned, GI got my hospital report 2day n called me straight away n we talked 4 about half hour which made me feel better, app on 15th, am really beginning 2 like n trust this guy........i think lol well he wasnt 2 know that medication he prescribed 2 help me was going 2 land me in hospital did he? thats the way i look at it anyway

took kids 2 the movies yesterday with a friend of mine we saw alvin n the chipmunks the 2nd 1 was funny n the kids really enjoyed then took them out 4 lunch.....n 2 the garden centre where i could get ideas n the kids played on the equipment n had a good time......c simple easy things

we organised this arvo for 9 of us 2 go 2 bondi beach on thursday, looking 4ward 2 it just hope im having a "good day " so 2 speak, wont eat anything from lunchtime tomorrow so hopefully no emergency toilet stops that would b great......

2 weeks off work still, awesome, loving it, never wanna go back ") nothin more i can say on this 1 lol

opening the BIG savings account when i go back 2 work, we banking most of my pay 4 the best part of this yr n going on a really big family holiday in November.......something 2 work 2ward n look 4ward 2 as well......also going 2 do better this yr on our little savings account n i endeavour 2 purchase a few things ive held back on cause i didnt wanna spend the money but im thinkin hey what the hell, save n spend n save n spend on this 1 but not touch the other, thats the plan n im gunna stick 2 it, when i get money plans runnin through my head its all over pmsl, i tell everyone we got no money so noone expects anything n we just live quietly n sensibly n then at the end of the year we can splurge n do whatever in the hell we want......makes it all worthwhile

got nan comin saturday, kinda a chrissy thing cause she couldnt come xmas day cause she was helpin out at the nursing home where pop lived n then i was in hospital so saturday is the day, lookin 4ward 2 that as well, strange as it may seem but i love hangin with nan she is very grounding n does her good 2 get out as well, we normally go 2 her place but she comin here.....bit of a hike 4 her but we pick her up n take her back so its no stress on her

tahleiya really enjoyin drivin her battery operated car, thinks she owns the road hehehehe n cj n bj lovin their xmas pressies as well

got 2 extra kids tomorrow but will b all good, they same ages as the older kids so they will have good time hangin out, big pool day tomorrow i can feel it now :) n bbq 4 dinner mmm mmm

did i mention still got 2 weeks off work lol

yep think i did

everyone gone 2 bed guess its my turn now, can feel that pillow under my head already, been sleepin really well since i got out of hospital, the sleep i got in the re wasnt rested sleep, it was terrible but here back home its the deep gentle not move much relaxed ( 4 want of a better word ) sleep, i love that feeling just b4 u fall asleep where ur whole body is relaxed ur all floppy mind is clear n boom, ur gone.........best feelin in the world, yep thats me done im outta here