|Dec 15 2008|
So the busy season has finished---for the most part---THANK THE HEAVENS! If I had to deal with one more question about gift cards, food, santa suits, and/or chairs v. bleachers...I was going to do some serious damage to an individual in my vicinity---whether it was their fault or not.
I typed something up about 1 week 1/2 ago, but somehow the entry was deleted. Unsure how that happened, but technology is techonology. My fault for not doing my typical copy and paste.
I was simply remarking on how I was happy with my new heating pad. And even though I'm in pain, I feel more in control of my life b/c I've determined when I'm giving notice, in the hopes of transferring offices, and it's empowering me...Still feeling pretty empowered.
Bought a new back massager today for my chair at work. I should probably get reimbursed...but I can't be bothered. It was a good 20 dollar deal. And I am definitely taking this business with me when I leave, no doubt about that.
My roommate attempted to talk me out of moving to San Fran b/c of our other roommate..."Have you considered what this is going to do to him? You're leaving him behind, you know? What's he going to do without you? Hrmm?"...Needless to say, I was a little blind-sided. I know she's pissed about things and doesn't want me to go, but that was a little harsh, to say the least. The friend in question was entirely more supportive..."You need to do what's going to be best for you. Do I want you to stay? Of course! Nothing would make me happier than finding out you've decided NOT to leave. But, I know this is what you want to do. And I'm not going to hold you back. It's not like you're moving to the moon. If you hate it, you come back. The couch will always be free for you."...Needless to say, I love him dearly.
I wish everyone in my life was so supportive. This is the one who gets me and the fibro the most. He's the one who should, he's fed me when I was too weak to feed myself so I could take a pain pill. He sat with me while I was in the waking coma that made me go off my pills altogether. He was so scared that day. He's seen me at my worst, I've seen him at his worst. We love each other dearly.
Anyway, now it's time to determine what to do with our daughter---our dog, Kennedy. Kenn is the light of our lives. She makes it all worthwhile. I don't know if I'll be able to get an apartment in San Fran in my price range with the necessary amenities that allows pets. She's not a small dog---pit bull mix we rescued from the street. She's all sweetness, but she's of the breeds that get a bad rap, so not alot of landlords are so accepting. Plus she's ill enough to be home bound. I can't get a place with carpet with her...and I really want a place with carpet. I don't want to be selfish, but I just don't know what to do. Matt can't take care of her himself, but neither can I. And I don't know what to do. Talk about staying together for the kids...
Anyway, having an okay day today. Just want everyone to keep their heads up and know I'm pulling for them. Don't let the holidays stress you too much. You have another 10 months to enjoy instead...the start of which is coming soon. Yay!
What if I don't have a date for New Years? Ho no...that will blow. Need to work on that now. Much love...
Shoulders, lower spine, lower back, wrists, fingers, R knee, ovary, hips---HIPS!!!---, head, butt, L ankle, calves, upper arms, teeth, jaw...having an okay day...
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