im trying not to cut my self....but i dont know what to do about it any more saterday was my first time doing it......idk http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks Mon, 17 Jun 2013 22:25:07 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/the-last-2-weeks-have-been-up-and-down Its been up and down Me and this girl have been dating and then we would break up because i guess we didnt know how are feelings were but last night something changed my mom is hooking up with her dadto date and we kinda become really close togther are feelings are though the roof we are in love like never be for and thats great.......last week her and me were talking on the phone and she said something to be and i dont know what i did but something in my head clicked and i cut her name in my ar [...] tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/i-cant-take-it-and-dont-know-why I have to play the choking game so bad i cant take it anymore im going to go crazy if i dont im really trying to stop ive only been play sense yesterday and i cant take not playing it....... tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/im-not-sure-what-to-do ive been really depressed im not on meds yet for it ive been going though this for a long time because of school my dad and mom its not getting any better im not sure what to do anymore i had bad thoughtsof things just wish i could live happy and get away from my mom if you could ever last 2 hours with her i would give you 500 $ just wish it would end and yes i mean my live........ tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/im-not-sure-anymore-100790 Things just got bad today at school im hereing voices in my head and there telling me to kill my self and i wont so im cutting wish they would go away cant wait to find a med to help me but any way i was scared and told someone at school the voices got me and&nbsp; i wanted to kill my self but im fine for now............could my day suck any more then now...... tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/hey-something-sad my ex called today and she made me the bad guy we were just talking about thing and it all went down hill she told me how we should be back together and then she started crying and said mabe we all notmeant to be.........so its kinda sad to me....... tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/this-day-kinda-sucks well today i guess is going ok just wish i could for get evey thing and that god would take me with him but i guess thats just how i feel about it and im not all sure if i want to stop cutting or not i guess i just love it way to much because i can cut and just think about the pain and see the blood run down my arm.......and some people will think is dum and things but that just how i can forget about whats going on.......but i guess i do need help i just dont know if i can stop cutting...... tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/im-not-sure-anymore If i could just forget everthing i would be ok but that will not happen so im upset i just cut and i know i was not on for a little bit but im back i was tring to deal with things nothings working as i can see im trying not to cut but for one my mom dont understand or care about how i feel and she said i cut for attention and thats not true if i did i was show it off but i hid it from everone and no one will understand why i do it but if the felt&nbsp; the way i do then they might understand but [...] tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/need-help-100220 ok its been a long time sene i cut but this day sucked im really pissed and up set so i cut i cant stop crying and it makes me feel like i should not be here any more so cutting is the only way to getit off my mind i just feel like my head is going to come off im going to get so pissed off i do something dum..........i need to talk to someone..........plz help.. tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/need-help-100218 ok its been a long time sene i cut but this day sucked im really pissed and up set so i cut i cant stop crying and it makes me feel like i should not be here any more so cutting is the only way to getit off my mind i just feel like my head is going to come off im going to get so pissed off i do something dum..........i need to talk to someone..........plz help.. tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/all-im-thinking ive had a good day but now im jsut think one little cut just one how could it hurt but i now theres ways............. tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/wow-this-day-will-suck being home with my mom all day someone who does not understand what im going though at the time being and who wont understand why im cutting is piss me off i all most ended it all but i could not do it.........i need someone to talk to and she will not talk to&nbsp; me about it i hate my live.............my bro is have so gf things going on right now and he almost tryed killing him self last night but i stoped him..............message me so we can talk....thanks tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/i-need-someone-96450 I need someone to talk to im going though a lot i have a lot on my mind wish i could get it all out but its so much i wish i could for get it all i was thinking of ending my live tonight with my cuttingbut i cant i just want out of it all wishing i was out of the whole thing wish someone would talk my live but its not comeing true i just need someone to talk to plz....... tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/thats-it im done with this crap im ending it im gone...............love ya all tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/my-mom-dont-understand <p>I wish my mom would understand the things going on right now but she dont wishing it was time to end it all any time i will cut till i do it to deep but she dont care.....i wish she would understandand stay by my side but that will not ever work.......i wish i would have not started this but i have so much on my mind and shes not helping wishing she would understand............</p> tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/im-so-upset-right-now My mom just wont understand me i got sent home because they saw the cuts on my arm.......my mom was so pissed off at me about getting sent home she didnt even care about the cuts and that just make mewant to cut more because im just feeling so down at the time being i just want to end it all just for get about so i find cutting my self just makes me forget it....... tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/whats-should-i-think I feel so bad im like going to get in truble at school today because on the cuts on my arm and that makes me upset so i want to do it again why cant my family just understand how i feel its pissing meoff its getting to the point were i dont want to live anymore but i dont have the guts to do it besides keep cutting my self............whats should i do? tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/i-dont-know-what-to-do-anymore-96310 i did it again i think about it all the time i also think of ending my live but for what because i got nothing to live for thats why lost my gf and now what im sitting here cutting my self hoping all this will go away yeah thats what i hope because ending my live not something i was looking for i just have so much on my mind about everthing and i just wish i could go to sleep&nbsp; never wake up again but if i keep cutting mabe that will happen but its not like i want it to happen..... i need he [...] tractors http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-sucks/idk-whats-going-on trying not to cut my self is really hard right now i juct want to stop.....this is so dum what im doing...but i cant help it... tractors