about my days http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-2 Thu, 23 May 2013 03:04:25 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-2/omgosh <p>what the heck is wrong??? alot goin on in my mind not sleeping well i lay down at night and sleep for a few hors and awake lord i need rest ....i constantly am thinking of my son i wake up and cantgo back to sleep lord will i ever get any rest i try to keep my self busy and work myself tired so maybe i can rest but i am guessing maybe im not at a rest mode when i lay down ..hmmm well i hope my day gets better and hope the lord watches over everyone today bless each and everyone of us our chil [...] motherofautism33 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-2/my-saturday-with-my-baby-shawn well went today picked up my angel took him to get a hair cut then went and spent half the day at chuckee cheeses he loves that place ..he was so good no problems he got lots of tickets and got hisselfprizes took pics with chucke cheese and left there came to my moms spent more time bought him more prizes he started to cry as we left to take him home but after tht he was fine very awsome day with my baby ..i needed that and he has missed me like i have him thank god for such a awsome day and pre [...] motherofautism33 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-2/this-friday-afternoon well start off by sayin goin thru this day positive or atleast tryin started off thinking how i will be gettin my baby boy tommorrow and spending some much needed time i am goin thru some withdraws frombeig with my son daily as i have said he makes me smile so it will be great to see him tomorrow will give a update tommorrow on our day i try to write daily in my diary cause it does help deal with alot of things in life ... i hope the rest of this day is better then this am by gods grace he stren [...] motherofautism33 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-2/today-97680 well today i woke up at 5am started my day with a prayer to get thru this day.. got dishes done laundry started and said lord give me strengh i will be goin to see my lovely son shawn today i have to pay his room and board and give him allowances and haircut and some money for a card to go to his music and dances wich is fun stuff for him he enjoys his music ...i hate leaving him but god only knows the heart of things i go thru when i have to leave him especially when he crys to see me leave it [...] motherofautism33 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/this-day-2/this-day woke this morning with a strong thought on my mind about my child dealing with him in a ghome is very difficult not a day goes by i dont think i want my boy home with me but i cryed today and it helpedbut doesnt change the wound inside my heart oh dear god it hurts but i know and god knows whats best for him just have to keep head up and keep smiling even tho its fake.. i love my son so much he is my life the reason i live day to day aand when i think negative i say wht would shawn do about that [...] motherofautism33