Fuck up

There's no better way to put it I'm a fuck up.  I should have ended this bs that was going on in my group way earlier but I was trying to let it pan out 'cause I had realized that thingshad gone too far, I knew that part of it was my fault as well as the other persons but that doesn't absolve me of mine & now I think I've turned everyone against me in the group, I'm damn near about to put it up to a vote on if I should leave or not & I'm talking from MDJ 'cause I really don't want to have to deal w/ people coming down on me about my fuck up.  I tried to not do anything for a while 'cause I was @ work & I was already in a bad mood from the whole day & I know that, that assisted in my bad judgment but I'm still a fuck up not matter what.  I know that this sounds like a pity party but it isn't I'm 100% serious. Should I stay or should I go.