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I GOT IT!!! then why don't I feel better?

Jul 19 2011

After 4 long years of waiting, fighting with Social Security I received my Disability, But it has been stipulated with my appeal which is still undecided and they may take away my benefits because 10 years ago I was using drugs, well I now know as they do, that all that behavior was due to childhood sexual abuse being bipolar and trying to deal with physical pain that I could not convince any doctor that I had Fibro...I want to celebrate and take a big breath but still don't feel that things are going to get better for me....I keep trying....

Previous diary posts by Lauracat:

Now I know why
Where have I been?
Happy Holidays
Good news, bad news
Blinded by Science

Why must I suffer
Guinea Pig for science
heavy sigh
On a day like today
Holding on

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written by Clarita, July 19, 2011

Sweetpea, Am really happy that you have at long last received your Disability. Think you are not sure what to feel as they are holding the sword of damacles at you with your drug taking episode- truly hope that that will not be the case plus that they will show you compassion. Am keeping everything crossed for you. Keeping you very much in my prayers, too.

Honey- heart goes out to you massively for all that you have been though with this struggle for justice plus all your challenges throughout your life with the childhood sexual abuse plus the bipolar and the fibro, truly heart feel for you!!

Just lean on us. Take one step at a time- baby steps.

Know that this bat girl is rooting massively for you. You can lean on her anytime, too!!

(i) angels be with you(i) right here right now!

All my massive gentle hugs, love your friend come rain or shine or rainbow, warmest wishes Clarita xooxoooxoox :-)

written by jennsgrl, July 21, 2011

Glad to hear you finally got approved but 4 years???? I had no idea it takes that long, I am just now applying and knew that it is a long process but I was thinking maybe a year - year and half... I hope mine does not take that long, I will be living in the streets if that is the case. Pryaers everythign works out for you in all aspects of your life.