I ended up leaving for 2 nights. The very first night my mom had already bought me a motel room at a fancy hotel with room service. She INSISTED on watching my son who I had never left a night before. I was so nervous I didnt think I could do it. BUT I DID> And guess what I enjoyed it.

To make things even better, the very next day I went to the DMV waited outside in the snow for 1 hour and got my drivers license renewed and all my tags on my car renewed!!

Then I WENT DRIVING YES DRIVING I filled up with gas and took off.

By myself and drove over 100 miles. I stopped and had lunch ( had a brief panic attack and thought I was going to die) got it together and drove home.

UNBELIEVABLE

It felt like I was a new woman. Like I could take on the world. Like I had a purpose in life again.

I am back home,,,, trying to save money to move out on my own. I want this so bad now.

Oh and to put icing on the cake, I got another job!! I start tonight, and it just happens to be only about 2 miles from my house!!

DAMN I FEEL GOOD!