Diary Entries for jettjones2

Rock bottom.

jettjones2

Well a long journey behind me and unknown future ahead. This monster of a drug that is swallowing my child appears to be winning. She went from one eviction to another in 2 months. I had her oldest son6yrs old placed with his natural and supportive father in June. That has been a blessing. I was awarded temp POA of the 2 small children. A 1 yr old beautiful girl. She had a stroke at 6 weeks of age and is paralyzed on the right side. She weighs 28#! And the little boy is 4 yrs old and a very sens [...]

Learning to cope..................

jettjones2

Well it has been awhile since I have been able to get back here on the sight. Money resources are tight. I live in Michigan and on unemployment. Being a single parent does not make me richwith material things. (Hence no internet)

I had thought that things were looking up for awhile. My daughter and her husband finally decided to seek treatment. They attend a suboxene clinic once a week now. They have made the effort even though it is an hour from there home. The [...]

Just for today...

jettjones2

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for the encouragement and strength to get through another day. My daughter is slowing coming around to talking to me. Since we had not spoken since Feb. Problem is she is in trouble and is looking for guidance. Funny isn't though, they never want to take your advice. They ask because they know what they should be doing and when you tell them they dont want to hear it, They are hoping i guess that we will say something to make them feel better ab [...]

Man without an Island?

jettjones2

Thought for the day! Is this depression, sorrow, jealousy. What is this I am feeling today?

I know that I am new to this sight and have not been able to read everyone's diary's and post. However, I see a lot of progress and promise being written in many profiles of days of soberiety and rehab.

This is one gift I am unable to offer my child. Financially rehab is just out of the question for private pay. One place I contacted said $40,000. That is a yrs pay!!! We are f [...]

RE: One day at a time!..

jettjones2

I have not spoken to my daughter in several months. She refuses to speak with me, I have texted her and she responds with "leave me alone" or hangs up on me if I call.

SHE TEXTED METODAY!!! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY WISHES AND SAID SHE LOVED ME.

Found out she took her son to both Sunday school and church today. She also attended services last week.....Do I dare wish?????.....

Mother's Day 2010

jettjones2

Well I found this support group yesterday and joined. Already I can feel a sense of relief of being able to relay my thoughts and feelings regarding my daughters drug addiction. This is wherepeople are suffering as I do. We are the parent's. They understand what HELL is. It is Mother's day. I know you wont call. I grieve for my 3 small grandchildren...My arms ache for you all...Silently I cry. I pray for understanding, I pray for hope,