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Darkwatch22

The Everyday Struggle That is Called Life

Worried. BPD is taking a lot out of me. Will I ever get over the emptiness I feel inside? "Find an interest, find a hobby" I am told, but nothing interests me anymore. I know I have to learn to like myself again but it just seems impossible. My therapist threatened me last week; If I don't get better soon I will be expelled from school. I don't know what to do. I think I'm losing the fight....


Such a busy day--the most busiest day of my life...mmhmm

Apr 04 2011

Papers, readings, quizzes; today has been very demanding, both physically and mentally. Doesn't help much that I only got a couple hours of sleep last night, having stayed up to watch The Langolierson ScyFy. I have no one to blame but myself as I struggle through this endless day. Worst part is, I have two papers and some reading to do tonight, and I don't even get finished with school until ten so it looks like I'll be burning the midnight oil. At least I won't need to get drunk out of my skull to have a good night's sleep tonight. I'll be fast asleep before I even hit the bed. 

As far as these journal entries go, I am going to try to write them later in the evenings . It just doesn't make sense to pound out an entry about the day's events when the day's not even half-finished yet. Only on afternoons like this do I find this kind of behavior acceptable--obviously I am not going to have the time to complete an entry after I finish my paper--I am trying very hard to make these journal entries an everyday occasion. And, I must admit, some of them are pretty stupid and reflect the same nonsensical ideas and thoughts which I have already portrayed in several prior entries. I really don't care about the logic of these entries because they are making me feel better just taking the time out of my day to type about these things. So (raspberry), jog on!

Hopefully tomorrow my entry will be more structured and make more sense but today my mind is divided several different ways and that is coming through here. 

Well, back to work!



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