In this diary I will make my very first concerted effort at cataloging my emotions & daily living. http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/the-diary-of-sb621 Thu, 23 May 2013 16:58:44 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/the-diary-of-sb621/got-overwhelmed-driving-less-than-15-miles-away-from-home Well, I overcame the feelings of&nbsp;confusion &amp; fear&nbsp;but it&#39;s still saddens me that I even had them.Today I&nbsp; a morning appointment to visit the school I plan to attend for Cosmetology&nbsp;training.&nbsp; It&#39;s not far from my home at all and is only like a&nbsp;20 minute drive each way. Less than 10 minutes into the drive I felt lost, flustered and fearful. Why?? I don&#39;t know. So, I pulled over into a gas station and took a few deep breathes and reminded myself how im [...] sb621 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/the-diary-of-sb621/where-to-start-130797 <p>I don&#39;t feel that there is anyone who understands me. The only person that truly understood me and appreciated me for who I really am was my Mom and she is deceased now.&nbsp; I was her primarycaregiver for&nbsp;at least 10&nbsp;years. My brother also cared for her but I was primary.&nbsp;&nbsp;She was always suffering from some kind of serious health ailment but the diagnosis wasn&#39;t terminal illness. So, there was always some glimmer of hope that she was going to recover even though [...] sb621