the circle starts again

last month seamed like the month from hell. i crashed badly and attempted, i had my room swept of unsafe objects and i was put on one to one obs for three weeks then they reduced it and now im backto normal obs.

i feel so much better now, i have so much energy now i can't get it to run out!!, im doing two hours of zumba a day which is a full body workout and i still need more, actually i think crave is a better word to use.

im feeling so positive right now, i managed to make a list of ten long term goals i'd like to achiieve and have put it in my recovery pack so its there to look at when i need to, i also managed to write down 5 positive memories i have which is good as i had a rough upbringing.

my course came through the post today and im looking forward to doing it, its on nutrition and will take a year.

having been through that bad spell has given me ideas by staff like my mood chart with pictures on which i place at three times a day, it helps staff to see how i am and it is helping me to see any patterns in my mood changes.

i just have to be carefull not to let this hypomania im in right now not to rise up to full blown manic behaviour.