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This week was a very productive one. I guess it is true what the say, You must take the first baby step in order to move on too bigger steps. 

 I finally am getting out of the houseand I am not at all nervous about it. THANK GOD! - I was truly worried what others would think of me, especially my neighbors. I saw a few of them. One asked me how I was doing and where i'd been. I explained that I was having "back troubles" - no need to go into my agor-depression funk with a total stranger. LOL 

 Anyway, Today was another good day. I didn't drive around. I'm short on money and gas is so expensive I figured I would save what little gas I have. Tomorrow I am working with a friend and that should bring alittle extra money. I have plans on monday to see my best friend who I haven't seen in 10 years! - I'm looking forward to seeing her. It should be a great reunion. Also gets me to drive about an hour from home. :) 

 I've been thinking so much about my Ex. I haven't really written about my ex, but it is very much in the back of my mind. Almost a year has gone by since we have spoken to eachother. I sometimes believe it was my agor that got in the way of our relationship. I just was not up to do anything fun somedays. Now that I think about it, I was always so panicky that when it came to finally going out, I was exhasted from AA. I think I am doing much better now that I understand what is going on with me. I am so tempted to call and see how my ex is doing. -- Maybe someday.... 

 Another big thing this week was passing my old house. On my way to my second interview on tuesday I decided since I was in my old neighborhood I would pass my house. It was huge for me. We left that house because sadly we had to foreclose. I always wondered what happend with it and when I pulled up to the front of the house it was all boarded up. It made me sad, but it was something I needed to see for closure. Sometimes we have to see things with our own eyes, and we can move on from what we learn... mistakes are small compared to the long life that is given to us. We have to live day to day, molment to molment and be very aware of our actions. 

 Thats all for me..... till next time :)