my diary is about me http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri Tue, 18 Jun 2013 21:34:01 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/stress-3566 i know stress is a huge enemy and it seems lately that the more i do to ease the stress the worse it gets. sometimes i don't think it is worth all of the work to try to get better. the rollercoasterjust seems to be moving faster with more turns and loops and i just want to get off it and get back on solid ground teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/yahoo ok i finally signed up with the yahoo messanger terihayes67 is my new name. please feel free to yell. teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/oooops a funny thing happened to me this morning while surfing the fibro site. i discovered that i was no longer a member. ooops how did that happen? anyway, having an ok day so far, getting ready for big snowstorm. teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/rollercoaster-ride i absolutely hate the rollercoaster ride of emotions. just when i think i can deal with this now i find out that the rest of the effects of this disease were just sitting back doing pushups so it can take another round out of me. one day i feel confident that the meds are all working, I can sort of function and allmost think. all good stuff and then something stupid happens and i can't figure out why i bother trying. the meds are still working and i feel ok physicaly but because of some stup [...] teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/wow-2305 today is i think the worst day i've seen i think. i don't know why but i am so angery that i feel like could trash everything. i hate everyone and want to scream. iam so scattered today that ican't even write. i just ant it to all go away. teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/not-a-good-day      to much fun yesterday is killing me today. i have had a charlie horse in my calf since 4 this morning to go along with the rest of the fibro garbage. oh well take the inbetweendrugs and go to bed................. teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/what-a-day      today i was able to live almost a normal life. I wrestled pigs and actually drove the truck out of town. It felt good for a change. my mind almost works and i ran with the wholething all day. I wasn't even to tired to move. I know that it is a rear thing at least for me but, it sure felt good. I just won't count on it lasting. teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/a-better-day      today has been a better day for me. i am still in pain but not as bad. my stupid moments are just that, moments. I have actually been able to acomplish a couple of chores todayand that is good for my self esteem. I am useing the internet more for therapy now so i maybe can stay a little sharper and i have a tough time reaching out. so many times i've been called a hypochondriac and i started to believe it. I am also learning that it is ok to have bad days and that i [...] teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/it-is-all-against-me-today today it is like everything is against me the copd,anxiety,depression, the fibro just makes it all come together. and now i also have to get used to being stupid, because that is one of the effects ofsomething. teri hayes http://www.mdjunction.com/diary/teri/today-2052 today i am angry, i'm fourty years old and have copd with chronic pneumonia and plurasy. i haven't had time enough to earn it on my own. it came from my fathers jobs...............today i am angery teri hayes