|Dec 29 2009|
This year has been when heck of a year for me. These couple of years has been a ride on the roll coaster for me, and I was able to juggle with my ups an downs. However this year has beenmore downs than ups. I'm on more meds. than I have ever been in my whole life. I have had so much pride to ask for help and too stuborn to let family and friends see me walk around with my cane. I'm not ready for all these changes, its hard for me to accept all this. I wish my family will accept me who I am now, and stop looking at me different. My psichiatrist tells me that this is a new chapter in my life, I know this is ture. How can I accept all this? Its so depressing, I want my life back, how can I get it back? My kids need me and I need to be there for them. Now days I'm on so many meds. times I feel like I'm not me anymore. I want to keep the faith and submit myself to God. I pray that I will have a better year and I pray for everyone for a pain free year, sending love and gentle hugs to everyone in md junction group.
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