Diary Entries for Lelik7779

Life

Lelik7779

So I went to a restaurant after school by myself. Some people that responded to my cry for help in this site recommended that I do things for myself... So this was for myself. Reallynice place, Osteria, new restaurant in Philadelphia. Overpriced, but looked really cozy from outside. Cozy and comfort is what I crave so much nowadays...And I enjoyed it, honestly I did. But... Sitting at the bar and listening to people...People who have lives. I miss having a life. I don't have a life [...]

Now what?

Lelik7779

So I texted, of course I did. He said home soon, hopefully not earlier than 10, cause than he would be loosing his poker tournament. He lied so many times. Not just to me. To everyone. So.. He might not be at the tournament. It's a big chance. And this thought is not bpd, this one is logic based on previous experiences. So I don't know where he is. At 10 I texted again asking if he was winning. What I really wanted to ask was if he was there, or still there, or ever there...Or [...]

Couldnt go to work.

Lelik7779

I have to confese something right away. I am a stripper. So that would be my occupation. I usually dont confese it right away when I meet people, because I dont look like one or act like one. And peopleseem to have a problem with it. I dont. I support myself, own a house, pay for school, live (lived) a normal life, exept maybe spend more money than I should sometimes. Not lately though. Lately I want nothing, spend nothing and care about nothing, which is , according to my boyfriend who [...]