superwoman

this day is starting off crazy! My boyfriend just told me that my best friend who is also his cousin has been saying some pretty fucked things about us. I really dont want to believe it but i guessits true. I dont understand it. I just feel like his family is so fucking messy its ridiculous! And on top of this bullshit i just found out i was pregnant. Ive been praying and the last thing i need is to be stressed out. I really dont give a damn what they say because all of them are not perfect and have had their share of mistakes. Im just gonna stay strong for me and this baby. I cant let other peoples words get to me. I havent been honest with my boyfriend because he hasnt been honest with me. He has done nothing to prepare all the hurt he has caused me in the past and yes i did do certain things to return the favor. But rite now a baby is on the way and im wiping my slate clean! No more bullshit and no more drama. Im just going to start loving myself and praying for strength and guidance.