Diary Entries for Prytro

long nights yet again.

Prytro

its been one of those nights, one of those nights when the thoughts begin to churn around in my head. Slowly spinning themselves out into a quilted frameworkof my life. I see image flashing before me. Thoughts unbidden, desires I thought hidden. It all circles slowly sending me spiraling into the dark. As I float here in this endless darkness there are soft patches of hazy lights . Moments in time that will always be special and beautiful to me. [...]

Long Nights

Prytro

For what feels like the millionth time, I lay awake desperately trying to fall asleep. to calm this whirling mind. I'm trying to stay positive and remind myself of the huge steps I've taken inthe last year since I was diagnosed but its hard. Its hard to stay positive when ever day and every night its a struggle just to act "normal" to be able to sustain some level of normalcy and get the things I need to get done. Just remembering that I've made plans with a friend ,somethi [...]

Updates and my return from a long break

Prytro

Well its been a long time since I have been on here and alot has changed.

I am now on 40 m/g of adderall a day and doing much better. I still have alot of depression and anxiety due to my adhd but I am learning ways to cope with it and ways to compensate for my adhd. Still a struggle everyday but I'm taking steps forward and seeing results.

I don't know what the future holds but I know that as long as I keep pushing forward I'll make it.

Whirling mind.

Prytro

Another late night, another stressed person. It seems as if every night I cant sleep , my mind just wont stop spinning, whirling. Thoughts race back and forth and back and forth, I try and find peace I try to quite or calm the racing thoughts whirling through my synapses. But its no use, no matter what i do it just wont stop. Its really aggravating, it seriously stresses me and I don't mean to sound all down and what not but its seriously a huge struggle for me. I come form a fam [...]

Rough night

Prytro

So I sit here at my computer and I'm trying to write a paper for class, and as I sit here and I try and try and try to focus and get the work done I keep hitting that wall. That wall where no matterhow hard I try nothing is happening, my mind is racing in 50 million directions, I cant sit still, yet I know I cant afford to get up. after about 2 hours of this I get hit with the wave of overwhelming frustration which leads itself into a breakdown. A breakdown of my defenses, I've been t [...]