Stopping the roller coaster

Glad to be starting my second week with J out of the house.  The weekend was a bit crazy because of him and I am realizing that I need to do more than just live apart from him.  I need somereal space from him.  He is a manipulative user and I cannot let him get to me.  This weekend, just minutes after a discussion where he tried to convince me to let him move back in, he accidentally sent a text to me asking another woman out.  At least this time I didn't get angry -- just kind of feels like one big, sad, pathetic joke right now. 

Our anniversary is this week.  Got an email this morning from a local restaurant wishing us happy anniversary and offering a discount on an anniversary dinner.  Made me sick to my stomach and want to cry at the same time.

 I hate him.  I love him.  I just want to be free of him.