Starting my road to recovery.

So its been a really stressful time lately. John and I are really on the rocks. I thought that  as soon as the charges got dropped things would be fine. But they arent. In fact I think they are worse. I dont know what to do. John actually left me tonight. I dont know exactly what his plans are but Im lost right now. I feel like I have no one to trust at all. I dont know who  my real friends are right now. I feel like my world is crumbling right before me. I just dont have the skills to help myself yet.