Good day...

I will admit that today has had a few bumps but for the most part its been the best day in a while. Im feeling calm to an extent. We got a lot done around the house today and I love spending time withJohn doing things around the house. I love a clean, nice looking home. And I love spending the time with john. I feel he wanted to do more outside stuff but im still feeling weak and tired a lot. So I really wasnt up for anything like that.  I hope hes not mad. Things are still stressing me out and im terrified about John being gone the next few days. Im scared to be alone right now, im not really sure why but I am. But I dont really have a choice so Im just going to have to suck it up I guess. Oh well at least we have tonight. Praying everyday this thing goes away.