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End of term depression/anxiety

Dec 03 2008

So I have noticed this pattern, it's been this way for a long time in school but it got much worse in college. As the end of the term approaches I get more depressed and I feel like giving up. No matter what my grades are they slip during this time because I get more and more afraid and have trouble driving to school. I'm still on my medications but the only thing that helps is the Xanax but I don't like that it gets worse this time of year.

I have the first of my finals tonight, and I'm scared but instead of being motivated to study or motivated at all, I just want to crawl back into bed and sleep until the term is over.

I get frustrated with myself because I know I have a disorder, I know I have troubles but I want to be functional and quitting school isn't an option.

Any thoughts?

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written by sharone, December 04, 2008

Sqkn, it would probably be helpful to you to pinpoint what it is that gives you so much anxiety at the end of the term. Exams? Fear of failure? Fear of success? If you can better pinpoint your fear, you'll be able to isolate it and see it for what it is rather than a general thing.

Also, start looking at the anxiety as being a finite thing. It can be controlled...you just have to find the right mix of tools. Do you need therapy? Exercise? Better diet? Adequate sleep? More socializing? These are all things that I have to be very careful to get enough of or I am prone to 'collapse'. Know thyself, Hon, and you will collect your tools and build your strength! Sharone