Sophia

I think I have it.  I'm starving, no doubt.  But, I'm denying myself food because of 2 things: I'm scared to death that Scott is going to go into another bipolar episode and leaveme.  This scares me because I don't have any control over this and there is nothing I can do if he decides to walk. And, I have a very intense fear of getting fat.  I do not think I'm fat, but it is easier to deal with hunger right now than my emotions.  I really can't deal with my emotions because I'm scared that it will trigger another bipolar.  So, I have no one to talk to about this and I feel a lot of anxiety.  I'm trying to eat, and I do a little. I bought multivitamins today because I feel very tired and sleepy...and cold!  No one can work this out but me.  I have such a headache from obsessing over this...back and forth....eat then not eat.